Thursday, February 21, 2013

Three Years - Winner announced!

Today has been quite a day and tomorrow I will blog about it! today! 

Eli's third birthday is today!  I do not know where three years have gone.  I miss my boy! 

Happy Birthday to you baby!

In honor of Eli's birthday Pet Art Creations is hosting a giveaway on my blog. We had fun drawing the winner. 

There were six entries:
 I folded the names and put them in a box.  Then I called my boys for a little help.
 Cooper held while Jay drew. Notice Jay's shiny new grin.  It will be his for the next 36 months. 
 Cooper got the honors of unfolding and reading the name. He was happy! He makes me happy.  Actually all of my babies make me happy, even on days like this one! (more on that tomorrow)

 Here is the name he read to me.  Then I had to snap a picture of it for good measure!
Yay Susan!  You are the winner!  I will give your name to Andrea and if you will contact her through Pet Art Creations' Facebook page, you can work everything out! 
Thank you all for entering our giveaway!  I might just have to make Eli's birthday, giveaway day every year!  It was fun! 
Many thanks for all of the prayers and beautiful words we received today!  These days are extra hard but I am feeling extra blessed tonight!
Much love,

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

My nemisis...

...seems to be technology these days!

I was made aware that some had been unable to enter the giveaway by posting comments on the blog. 

Here is the deal-e-o

You can comment on the blog before this post or send me an email at  Either way you will be entered as long as you like Pet Art Creations on Facebook!

The giveaway will end tomorrow evening and we will put the names in a hat and let the kiddos help with the drawing.  It will be fair, I PROMISE! We just need some entries!  It doesn't cost anything to enter!  It is a really cool prize.  So, what ya waitin' for?

Much love,

Friday, February 15, 2013


Okay, forget the rafflecopter!  I dislike it A LOT!!! It is showing that there are five entries in the giveaway but will not show me who the entries are! I am going to try and reclaim those entries somehow.  I sent a message to the moderator of the website and have not heard back YET!  I am unhappy. 

Here is what I am going to do. 

If you have already entered the giveaway please comment on this blog post that you did. If you have not already entered and are waiting, then just comment on this blog post as well. Remember you must like Pet Art Creations on the FB for one chance to enter.  Leave me a comment stating that you did that.  Then leave a second comment here for a second chance to win.Just say hi and you are entered!

So sorry for such turmoil.  You have until Eli's birthday on the 21st to get entered!  It is a very nice prize! It is fun and whimsical!

Much Love,

Monday, February 4, 2013

Quick Hello

Just a quick hello today!  I wanted to clarify that you may go ahead and enter the giveaway for Eli's birthday anytime between now and the 21st.  It is a really neat giveaway and I am quite excited about it!

Much love,

Friday, February 1, 2013

Birthday Month

Update: I just noticed that this post had disappeared from my blog.  I do not know how or why, but I re posted it and it seems to be on again.  Sorry for any inconvenience.

Wow, hello to all of you, my long lost friends.  September 4th was my last post. I do not know where time has gone!  I have sat down to type several posts in the in between and nothing seemed right.  I have missed my little corner of the world wide web!  It feels good to visit with you I have been away from home on a vacation and come home.  If that  makes any sense?

Since we have not spoken in way too long and because it is Eli's Birthday month, I think I will have a little giveaway.  Bribing you to be my friends, perhaps?  NO, NOT AT ALL. Just showing you how much I love you. 

This month is Eli's birthday month and I wanted to do something special.  Andrea, over at Pet Art Creations agreed to give some blessed individual a really cool gift.

Andrea is a digital artist and she created this picture for me. She is also my daddy's sister. She took an image that I had taken and created this really cool scene around it.  I just love it!  Isn't is adorable? She even added a picture of Eli in the clouds.  How special!! I love how Amelia appears to be enthralled with the star fish.  It is just way cool! Wouldn't you like one of these?

Or what about this adorable baby? Do have a pet you would like to see in one of Andrea's incredible scenes?
I just can't handle the cuteness in this one!!

We will be giving away one digitally enhanced photo on Eli's birthday! Andrea will take one of your photo's, digitally enhance it, and have it put on an 8 x 10 canvas.  Yes, I said canvas. It just keeps getting better doesn't it? This is a $90 value.  Thank you Andrea for sponsoring this sweet giveaway!
To be entered to win Eli's Birthday giveaway just complete the Rafflecopter entry form! Happy sharing! Remember, the winner will be drawn February 21, 2013 as part of Eli's birthday celebration!" rel="nofollow">a Rafflecopter giveaway

Much love,

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

She just knew

It was so real she could see it, smell it, taste it, feel it and it burned itself in her mind.  A permanent tattoo that perhaps would fade with time. 
She went in to deliver her baby.  In an instant like none other she was holding a lifeless body...willing it to breath.  Begging the doctors...nurses to check just one more time.  It was a mothers instinct that kept propelling her to get them to check just once more.  I know he will breath if you just listen.  Just once more, please... and they would only to shake their heads in tragic sorrow.  He was her second to be lost or was he?  Somewhere she remembers those people saying, "But you knew it could happen."  It has before, don't you remember?   Were there really six or was it five?  The questions began swirling until it made its own sense. It was a way to reconcile keeping her beautiful rainbow and having her beautiful boy too. I think.  I guess. It only made sense in her mind.
All of the sudden there was a loud gasp for air in the quietness of that tiny room.  Then screams...the screams of a newborn.  "Hurry", she screamed to him.  "Run, get the nurse."  I knew he was alive.  I just knew it, but they would not listen.  They didn't believe me but they will now. They came running in hurriedly and whisked him away.  They took him to the NICU to be kept alive.  He was kept that way for days, weeks on end.  Finally, they went home to shower and retrieve some things they would need, only to be called right back.  He needed them now.  It was a race to make it back.  She frantically tried to call her mother to beg her to go ahead so he would have someone.  She couldn't get her.  "Why was she not answering her phone?"  Finally,  her mom answered and she said she would go.  When they got there family had gathered. They all waited with bated breath.  He just needed his mommy and daddy.  That was all.  He was going to be fine and so was the baby of her friend whom she had walked through this journey with.  Her friend's baby was being put in a regular bed because she was doing so well. Her baby, her Eli would get there she just knew it. 

And then it was over before it really began.  I wanted to go back to dreamland just for a little while longer.  It is so rare for me to dream of him.  It has happened two or three times now.  This is the most I remember from any of them.  It was the best of both worlds because my mind worked it out for me to have Eli and Amelia along with my other sweetlings. 

Much love,

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Pete and Repeat were sitting on a log

...Pete fell off and who was left?

Pete and Repeat were sitting on a wall.  Pete fell off and who was left?


It has been one of those days.  I hate to go on and on about things that trigger bad days or having bad days because frankly, sometimes it sounds like a broken record even to me...kinda like Pete and Repeat...a never ending saga. Then I think well this is my place.  It is where I pour it out and it has been so long since I have felt compelled to pour it out. I guess that is a good thing...right?

I have been stung four different times while working in the garden this summer.  Twice by bumble bees, once by a wasp, and once by a yellow jacket.  Each sting hurt but I got over it pretty quickly except for the last one.  A stinking bumble bee got me on my rear end.  I think it hitched a ride on my fanny and when I sat in the car it got ticked and did a number on me.  It swelled, burned, developed a fever on that side and turned red and angry.  After Benadryl and consultation with my hubbs and mom, I decided the next day to let a doctor look at it.  Her response was confirmation that I had done the right thing by coming in. So, after steriods and antibiotics, my rear is on the mend.

Funny how sometimes a sting has minimal pain and other times it can really throw you for a loop.  It's a lot like grief. It has almost been two and a half years.  Everyday does not sting but sometimes it just randomly happens and it is beyond my control.  Sometimes it can be just as raw as it was in the very beginning.

I started this post on Friday and today as I sit here and write, the rawness has gotten better.  I think of him everyday.  I long for him everyday. Some days are just really bad.  They are fewer and farther between than they used to be, but when it hits, I can count on a rough few days.  I really hate that about grief, the fact that you never know when it will get you.  As I was really struggling those few days, I can recall at least five times that God put these verses in front of me.
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

I love that about God, how He walks with us and He talks with us.  Even when we do not listen the first time...or second...or third, He does not give up on us.  He is patient and kind.

Even when I question Him, he loves.  When I begged and begged him to just let us keep Eli, He answered and told us that, while we would see a miracle, Eli was His and He was going to take him Home. I'm left questioning... If I had just had a little more faith would it have been different?  Did I just not ask in the right way? Did I step wrong in the valley?
Those things really haunt me sometimes. But He answers...
He says,"Lean not into thine own understanding.  Trust me and I will show you the way. "

What an amazingly loving Abba Father we serve!

Much love,